I’ll just say it. CM at the moment for me is boring. I remember recently rush to get on after getting home from doing stuff, and pick runner. And years ago, I used to be maining corpsman, runner, ravager and Doctor. But in both instances, I have found myself just not getting on anymore, or at the very least, doubting if I even WANT to get on the game. Some may know me as RA-XX, or more rarely, Candon ‘Fisherman’ Cox, the runner/lurker who dies 6 times in one match from wanting to harass marines too much, or the marine who often picks CL or field doctor.
It’s difficult to pinpoint WHY i feel bored. Maybe it’s the Xeno gameplay, getting outsmarted by a better player, and slowly exhausting myself to the point I’m basically sweating, which I really don’t like. Or maybe it’s the Marine gameplay, mindlessly going into the front, barely shooting my gun if It doesn’t have IFF, in fear of accidentally shooting my teammates, while also trying to multitask communications and positioning myself properly. And for the passive roles like CL or Cargo Tech, I’ve found myself bored, constantly tabbing out or doom scrolling on my phone
Some may suggest “Why not go for a whitelist role”. I could go for Synthetic, but then I’d have to try and figure out a gimmick that can be actually original, separate from the others that distinguish themselves individually. I could go for a fax responder, but then I’d have to grind for hours on roles that I don’t feel passionate about, and will only tire myself out. I could go for Predator, but then I’d have to constantly play passively, out of fear of breaking the Honor Code unknowingly. I guess some of these reasons can just be summed up to laziness and fear of messing up.
CM isn’t for everyone, people come and go. I’ve seen people who were very popular among the community leave out of issues that are out of their hand, or simply just from exhaustion.
As I write this, I’m second guessing myself if I should even post this, and I’m not entirely sure why, I guess just to get this off my chest, as I truly like CM and it’s community, so I hope you understand.
