Warning: Major (Durstine) levels of cringe incoming and one long winded unedited I literally just fuckin wrote this speech.
Well. Didn’t expect to be making this, guess I’m back here a second time. As funny as it sounds, I thought I’d be playing CM and SS13 for a lifetime. I would be lying if this shitty game running on a godawful engine has not been integral to quite frankly, my life. As corny as that sounds, funnily enough.
Seriously, though. I started playing CM back in… 2023? Late around that time? And SS13 as a whole way back in 2021. Jesus. That’s four years of SS13. And I can wholeheartedly say that for (most) of it, I don’t regret spending time into it. It’s like a hobby, y’know?
I don’t mean it lightly how big of an impact this community has had on me. I came in knowing jackshit about the Alien franchise. I didn’t even know the xenomorph came from it, lol.
I came in during a big struggle in my life. It’s not my place to go into detail about it. But the point is that CM gave me something to look forward to, and connecting with others who share an interest in one giant ass game that’s completely different from whatever slop is coming out nowadays. Some of you I’ll still be friends with long after CM is done. And I really do look forward to that. Every one of you, reading this probably made my day better in some shape or way. So thank you for that, even though you had no idea, now you do. You all gave me something I thought I didn’t deserve, and now I’m living a better life because of it.
I can only remember so much, but here’s some of the highlights of my time here:
Getting CO, one of the biggest highlights of my time here. I remember Aalto fuckin spoiling it in my DMs. Fuck you for that.
Bullying that fake fuckin wayne. Jesus now he’s the sole survivor.
Those prep room brawls pre-drop. That shit was funny as hell devolving into apes and beating the shit out of eachother.
And obviously, doing questionable acts in the bathroom with Philip Staymates.
I guess I should answer the question literally nobody asked: Why am I leaving?
Well. As much as I love it here. All good things must come to an end. CM is starting to grow too cumbersome for my schedule. I’m beginning to be more ambitious I want to be and do a lot; hence why I can’t spend time playing for two hours and weeping on my desk as to why Delta isn’t pushing. It’s starting to become straight up parasitical and it’s going to catch up to me one of these days.
And while I could come back during the traditional seasons; I feel content with leaving CM as a whole. I don’t want to get burned out and crashout and leave on bad terms. I’d rather leave with the good terms I have now, and be left with all these memories of playing a two directional game. I’ll also be deleting Byond and SS14 as a whole, so it’ll be unlikely you catch me on another server.
Maybe by some miracle or circumstance I play for a day some six months in the future if a couple of mates wanna. But that’s gonna be it for me.
So yeah. Now I have an unbreakable habit of turning my head when I hear “Wayne”. Awesome. Fanatical, even.
I’ll be playing my last rounds this Sunday. I’m not asking for special treatment or anything, just for those who want to know. Come say hi, I’ll enjoy it.
And remember:
Always walk forwards.
