Begging to be community banned is somehow not as low as just spamming slurs to assure your own ban? Your logic is incoherent
many people have done insanely stupid shit to intentionally get banned, such as the legendary Jakk Briefing SD crashout that lead to his cban
but to put this in your own overdramatic terms and make it likened to real life:
A person who turns up asking for the death penalty will never get it, they’ll be put in a mental ward
a person who stabs 50 people will probably get the death penalty (do not actually do this)
the people who actually get cbanned y’know, did something to deserve it beyond being terminally addicted to a free, open source niche indie game that you can simply not touch if you want. If you truly desire to be banned, just do something to get banned over???
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TL;DR:
You are not a meth addict, many drugs have a mirad of reasons, such as painkillers that you mentioned that makes them hard or impossible to wean off of, such as veterans after war who need them for chronic injury etc.
You are someone playing a video game, video game addiction is real, but so is your ability to make a choice. You do not have neurological dependency on a chemical cocktail that can literally kill you if you go cold turkey, you just need to do other things in your life that aren’t playing cmss13
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ask your parents if they can help get you a therapist
edit 2:
not all addicts require an external person to fix their problem, often that actually makes it worse. If person A is addicted to meth and person B locks it away, person A will get their meth a different way and resent person B.
Person A must try to not take meth, and person B can try to support them in that.
This is why people relapse, because Person A is fundamentally what matters, not person B.
(In short, being cut off won’t fix anything you’ll just find something else. This is a symptom of a problem)